Here we go

2009-05-17T17:46:00.000-07:00

So here i sit and watch everyone. And yet there is still nothing to see.

2009-03-22T12:53:00.000-07:00

I am beginning to realize. That soon I will need to go on meds. That scares me. It is like the beginning of the end. I know people can be on them for years and then need to switch and switch again then soon it just ends. I understand that it is ok, but i really dont think i will be here for much longer. I guess, I need to figure out what I want to do before I go. And make the most of it. Yet, it is still hard to face; your own end. I have been watching more and more die each month. So scary. Wow, what a think to face. It is not so much the death, but how long it will take, how painful it will be, how each day will be a struggle. The one quote that repeats in my mind, that some one said it was like. "What do I have to do today to stay alive"

In God's Eye

Here we go